room at the top

i got a room at the top of the world tonight
i got a room at the top of the world tonight and i ain't coming down....

that song has been running in my head since last night when i read an article about tom petty and his new album. he mentioned that when he played a show with the black crows kate hudson asked him to play "room at the top' and he said it would be a cold day in hell before he played that song live. he didn't tell her that but thats what he said he was thinking. he said the song was too painful to play live. he said that he doesn't even remember writing most of the songs on that album because he was going through so much emotional pain in his life at that time. it got me to thinking how often people won't play certain songs because they hurt too much....but those are the ones i usually end up liking the most. "room at the top" is such a sweet melancholic yet resigned kind of song. i guess i just really like songs that make you feel something. i know thats very simplistic and generalizing but its so hard to put into my own words what so many people have already done in their songs . they speak for themselves. its like the cliche that when you're in the most misery the most beautiful art can be made. bob dylan said that he couldn't understand how anybody could say that they enjoy blood on the tracks because it was full of so much pain. but thats my favorite album. i guess its so stripped down and raw that you can't help but relate to it. it hits you on like an instinctual level that you can't deny because its so real. i don't know, i'm really rambling and trying to make sense of whats in my head but i think what i really like is the fact that bob can put into words what most of us wish we could. but thats one reason why i appreciate him so much. he's already said what i wish i could say sometimes.

anyway, on a lighter note, its funny how my roomate decided to rearrange our house a week before we're supposed to move. i actually really like the new arrangement in the living room. in the middle of taking down all her stuff from the walls she surprised me by hanging up all my pictures from my senior show that were just sitting there stacked up against each other against the wall collecting dust since may when i finally got them from the bed and breakfast. there was always so much other stuff on the walls that was already there before i moved in so i didn't have room to hang them up. its nice to see them on the walls even if its just for another 5 days. oh well, i guess i can hang them up in my new place just as well. my own place.....oh i can't wait i can't wait i can't i can't wait!